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PROJECT UPDATE
Project Update: Hospital
Taking Zoey for her daily run, then checking myself in at Sunrise Hospital. My wound is forming an abscess and not draining like it usually does. This is only the second time in the 20 or so years I've had it that it's done this. The first time, about ten years ago, I was in for about a week. Hoping it's not as long this time.
My aids are still going to come over twice a day to clean up for Zelda and Zoey, make sure they have plenty of food and water, and give them a bit of company. It's leaving them home alone that I'm most upset about. They get very sad and mopey, especially after Sylv passed.
I'll be leaving instructions with a few people on what to do if the worst happens, but I'm fairly sure it won't come to that. Still, since it's just me, now, I need to be prepared.
PROJECT UPDATE
Project Update: Back In Action
I'm back to work full time on this, and the book will be going to print some time in late April. I'm charging final things to cards now! I had been holding off until I knew I was ready to get things done. Thank you all SO much for being patient in this brutally hard time for me.
PROJECT UPDATE
Project Update: Still Trying
Hey, everyone. Want to let you know I'm still here, still trying. I worked today, not happy with the results, but I'm trying. Sylv's passing has been hard on me, in more than the ways that losing a soul-mate and life-long partner usually is. I'm having to learn and figure out how to do even the most basic things myself as I'm now completely on my own 22+ hours a day as a quadriplegic. It's taking longer than I'd hoped, there are still things I'm struggling to do, and any single, simple thing can derail my entire day.
I'm trying. For now, that's all I can do. Please bear with me. I'm not charging cards for shipping or add-ons until I am fully confident that I'm back.
PROJECT UPDATE
Project Update: Funded!
We hit the goal! Thank you all so much!
There's 96 people following who haven't pledged yet - 96! - and I'm hoping to convert as many of those as possible in these final 3 days. If you're one of them, please consider pledging! You get a beautiful hardcover of art I drew with my mouth, the story of how I fought for and won my first amendment right to express myself with my art on the Las Vegas strip, and the knowledge that you've helped me continue to survive and thrive as a disabled artist on my own.
I appreciate each and every one of you!
There's 96 people following who haven't pledged yet - 96! - and I'm hoping to convert as many of those as possible in these final 3 days. If you're one of them, please consider pledging! You get a beautiful hardcover of art I drew with my mouth, the story of how I fought for and won my first amendment right to express myself with my art on the Las Vegas strip, and the knowledge that you've helped me continue to survive and thrive as a disabled artist on my own.
I appreciate each and every one of you!
PROJECT UPDATE
Project Update: Sylv's Birthday
My wife Sylv, as most of you who have followed us on other projects over the years know, passed a little over a month ago. One of the things this project will do is help me continue to get by own my own with increased aid care costs now that Sylv is not here to help me with daily needs. This is a post from my Facebook earlier today.
So today Sylv is 49. We'd talked about wanting to take Zoey on the High Roller this Fall - Zoey's second birthday was on the the 15th. We figured we'd do it on Zoey's birthday, and I initially was going to do it then, but F1 made that pretty much impossible. So I did it on Sylv's birthday. A few good friends went with us, and my nieces took Zelda by car so she could be a part of it without having to walk all that way there and back. Her back knees are bad, and the cold makes them worse.
We all eventually got there - F1 STILL has everything fucked up in this area - and went up together. I was going to pay for everyone but they insisted on covering it for me. Zoey, as expected, tripped entirely out. She was utterly fascinated and also a bit nervous and wouldn't get too close to the glass. About a foot. I watched the sphere in particular, that's Sylv's favorite Strip thing, but made sure Zoey got to look out all the different directions. When we got off, she was very fascinated by pretty much everything, seeing it up close again and realizing we'd been way up high. It was pretty cute.
Zelda was chill. She'd done it before, so wasn't as impressed.
I'll have video and photos up later, but these pics are of baby Zoey riding behind me in my seat when she was too small to keep up with us, and the last picture Sylv took of themself. I thought they felt appropriate.
I got home and my nieces helped unhook the dogs, heat me up some pizza for lunch, and I told them they could go. I didn't want to keep them, there's nothing to put together today, anyway, so I thanked them for going up with me and the dogs and they left.
I honestly couldn't hold it together much longer, no matter how much I don't want to be alone right now. As soon as they were gone, I fell apart. I'm not doing well today, which I expected. I missed my meds last night and this morning (I think I conveniently forgot because they make me feel mellow and grounded, which has been keeping me from really feeling what I'm going through) so it's finally hitting me hard. Yes, I've taken a med now, it'll even back out in a few hours. I'll be okay. I'm not okay right now, but I will be.
Happy birthday, sweetie. I love you and miss you so fucking much.
Your support makes a huge difference in my life, and helps me survive during this time of uncertainty and transition. For those of you who have pledged, I thank you so very much.